Miracle ? Or Conscious Possibility?
I found a lump in my breast in September 2001. What a momentous time for the world it was because fear was present in many people’s minds after 9/11 and the vibrations of the world were at an all-time low.
It was June 2002 that I was given the diagnosis of breast cancer after nine months of waiting for tests, appointments and being misdiagnosed with a cyst. In the end/beginning, the tumour was
18 cm x 17 cm (cantelope) before I started my chemotherapy treatments. I must admit that the initial shock turned to fear. Who could I trust?
Everything happened so quickly during this first diagnosis. The dreaded phone calls to family and friends, the blurred moments of making decisions, the shock, the pain and despair from loved ones. After seeing many specialists and going through different oncologists, I finally found the perfect oncologist. She was compassionate, understanding and made me feel important regardless of my unconventional beliefs. I underwent the traditional chemotherapy and radiation treatments, even though I vowed never to take that route after seeing what it had done to my mother who passed from ovarian cancer 14 years prior. The oncologists and surgeons did not have faith that I would fully recover to live a long life. I knew I had to do more for myself.
During six rounds of the strongest chemotherapy and months of hypnotherapy and other non-conventional healing modalities, I regained my mental strength and accepted the fact that I carry the dis-ease. I thought of death as evolving energy and a new beginning for what eventually becomes all our fate. This perception empowered me. I truly believe that the acceptance and the surrender of the fear awakened the true healing power within me.
For years prior to the moment of my first cancer diagnosis, I had undergone and thrived with hypnotherapy. It was a way to dissipate my fear and release any obstacle preventing me from being healthy. It was such a profound experience that it changed my perspective regarding the decisions I made unconsciously and consciously. It changed my thought patterns that were hard wired into my brain and provided me with the determination to find a way back to perfect health. I released the emotion of being upset at the world and upset with myself for allowing this disease to enter my body. I was open to a variety of different therapies and healings. I attended an Indiginous Sun Dance where I received a healing. I went camping by myself and studied books from authors with advanced knowledge of how the Universe functions within all of us such as: Deepak Chopra, Eckhart Tolle, Louise Hay and Caroline Myss just to name a few great ones.
This realization of acceptance and being capable of altering my negative energy prepared me for that moment which I now acknowledge as a pivotal point of my existence.
There was a balance between western and eastern medicines. Although traditional cancer medications helped in some ways, my focus was directed more towards consciousness and the power that I have within myself to heal my body. Firstly, I made the decision that I will survive and thrive, rather than let go and die. This is absolutely crucial to overcome any challenge and encompasses the entire experience of what I have learned. Deepak said it best when he stated: “Healing is knowing who you are and being conscious at all times.” Louise Hay stated: “Love is the great miracle cure. Loving ourselves works miracles in our lives.”
Since that dreaded day in September 2001, I have been diagnosed with cancer six more times! Three more breast cancers, one lung, and two brain tumours. I had a double mastectomy with reconstructive surgery, the middle lobe removed from my right lung and then I had a radical hysterectomy for precautionary measures. On more than one occasion, doctors had told me to get my affairs in order and enjoy life to the fullest while I could. So you’re probably thinking all of that personal work I’ve done is not helping because the cancer keeps surfacing? Here are some facts to consider:
- According to the National Cancer Institute, an estimated 27 percent of people in the United States live at least 5 years after being diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer.
- While treatable, metastatic breast cancer (MBC) cannot be cured. The five-year survival rate for stage 4 breast cancer is 22 percent; median survival is three years….. As with primary breast cancer, treatment for stage 4 breast cancer, such as chemotherapy or radiation, can often be harsh and unforgiving.
- Lung cancer has an 18.1% 5 year survival rate and a 7% 10 year survival rate.
- Around 19 out of every 100 people (19%) diagnosed with malignant brain tumour survive for 5 years or more. Around 14 out of every 100 people (14%) diagnosed with a malignant brain tumour survive for 10 years or more.
There is no percentage for people who have survived cancer seven times and in three different parts of the body because it is extremely rare. I have survived cancer for 18 years and still going strong! My last cancer diagnosis was my brain tumour a little over five years ago. I am currently CANCER-FREE. I believe in trusting ourselves and the energetic force we truly are, loving ourselves unconditionally and wholeheartedly accepting whatever comes our way. Just because I had cancer seven times doesn’t mean that the therapies and methods I have done are not working, it simply motivates me to continuously find ways to improve myself at the core of my being. We are all more powerful than we know or believe. Is surviving cancer seven times a miracle? Or conscious possibility?